So last night was easier than I thought it would be. I told him I wasn't happy and he wondered off. He knows it's over, thankfully. However, after dumping it, he tried to guilt trip me and seems to be trying to rebuild the gap between up... That gap has been growing for months. I'd go on about my Bridge metaphor for relationships but it would bore you all. May do it anyway.
Every relationship is a ravine. The more scittish the relationship is, the deeper the drop and the more rocks at the bottom. A perfect relation would be a large stainless steel bridge without any wind and a small drop, as well as a short distance between the start and the end. However, the more 'rocky the road', the worse the state of the bridge until it becomes that little rope bridge that you find on the local adventure playground, you know the one. The one with just a rope to put your feet on and several ropes hanging down for you to hold on to. At the other side of the bridge is the world of happiness and beautiful love. The more difficult it is to reach that point, the more wind that will be blowing against the bridge, making it more and more difficult to cross.
The relationship I just left was a silly little wooden bridge, gale force winds, and the otherside was so far away I couldn't even see it. So I called a helicopter and rescued myself. Yet this new one, it feels like a good strong bridge, no wind, a wonderful sunny day, a drop so small, you wouldn't even notice you fell and the other side is less than a foot away. It isn't like he's a rebound either as I met him before I broke up with my last boyfriend. He's amazing. I could never do anything to hurt him.